Eventful day
Today was Kara's funeral. I really hate to cry in public, and I tried to hold it in, but as soon as her sorority sisters did their presentation I was a mess. Then I bawled at the grave site and said goodbye to my lil goose, Sara said she'll forever be our freshman and that just made me cry more. I can't help but to feel a little hole in my heart, not just for myself, but for all the people that love her and were close to her. It seems unfair that tomorrow my life will pretty much be back to normal, but they have to live the rest of their lives with that burden. Like K said when her mom passed "Tomorrow all these people will go back to their lives, but I'll never have my mom again". Brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. Not to say that I won't think about Kara from time to time, and not to say it hasn't affected my life...but it's nowhere near the impact it's going to have on so many people. There were so many people there I just wanted to hug, people I didn't even know, people I do know but not very well.

Wanida, every time I saw you I just wanted to hug you, but I thought it would be weird since we've only really gotten to know each other via the internet...so *internet hug* I am so sorry for your loss, I can't even imagine the heartache you feel now. All I can say is the pain never goes away, but it hurts a little less over time. There are still nights I cry over the loved ones I've lost...

I do have a happier note to the day. I found out that Cameron comes home Tuesday July 31st at 12:35 pm, and he's flying in to Toledo (not Detroit, thank goodness!!). Hearing a date and a time just made my day so much better, 'cause I know he'll hold me and make me feel better in less than 2 weeks. OMG, I can't even explain to you the overwhelming joy I get just THINKING about being back in his arms, living our lives together again finally. 5 long effing months. I never want to do it again, my heart hurts so badly when he's away.